My heart believed all your obvious lies;
The fear of isolation took control.
You thought I didn’t know but my eyes could see –
You riding my friends almost broke my soul.
There’s a perverse satisfaction in pain;
I felt more full of life when my heart ached.
The fighting and violence enraptured –
Your foreplay fulfilled a need to break me.
Did you hear the rain against the window?
It was the storm that made me realise.
I uncovered the truth within your heart –
Each day with you always felt like a lie.
When the moon covered itself in darkness,
At that brief moment when God could not see –
There was just one thing I wanted from you;
Despite it all, did you ever love me?