Invaded while strangers consumed;
Screamed when I saw his face.
Men I didn’t know entered my room;
I let them take his place.
Hope filled my heart they may be him;
Untrue love filled my fear.
Released from the torment of truth;
Lies were all I could hear.
Left a boy to pine and wonder;
Held his hands in my dreams.
Seen as just something to plunder
Never said he loved me.
Dear Holy Mother, how to trust,
With all I have beheld.
To trust a male soul is too much,
From within my own hell.